"True intimacy with God always brings humility." - Beth Moore
I've seen throughout my life that this stands true. To be that close, you can't help but start to reflect the other. God is humility and patience and kindness. When I welcomed God's truth over my life as being defined only by Him, I was able to feel the release of this freedom into my life. I've gained a freedom to give without expectation and to choose to not carry the world's burden of what "I am", because repeatedly I have realized that true joy lies in knowing my God, my father and friend. When you can grasp this, a lifetime of baggage will fall off your shoulders. My hand in His, I want to continue this journey being His love reaching out. He is the only experience where giving over all my control gave me freedom. I am undeserving. God, I don't want to be useless. "My heart will sing no other name." When I was younger, I use to pray to be able to give it all up in order to be near you. I'm offering that back to you. It's where it belongs.
Psalm 16:11 Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.
You abiding in me has brought an experience that no other can compare to. I want more. "I'm running to your arms." I want to walk along side of you as your friend like Abraham. I desperately want to be known to have been after your very own heart like David. If people only say that I loved deeply and widely then I can't ask for anything greater. I want to be so close to you that your every movement in my life is in no need of me guessing. So close that your every movement is felt like a subtle shift in the wind guiding me of your every turn. I want to thrive in your presence. You tugging at my heart isn't harsh conviction. It means I'm within your reach, and I thank you for that. Countless times I have reached out for your hem, and I will continue to cling to it.
"O, the fullness, the pleasure, the sheer excitement of knowing God here on earth." - Jim Elliott
